Dear Family and Friends,
How crazy to think that there are only a few days left..... I still feel like it is not real yet..... I'm nervous and excited and Sad all at the same time and can't wait to see everyone! Have a great few days and see you soon!
Week May 22nd - 28th 2017
Monday:
It just seems to be one of those days. What I mean by that is recently as I have been preparing to come home, my anxiety has picked up a bit. Not that I am not excited, but just as I onces left home and had a bit of anxiety, I am now preparing to return home without the knowledge of what life will be like after the mission... I have been packing all day with those different thoughts in my mind, and it is really crazy to think about. I got a good amount of packing done, and in the whole process we had a lot of fun!! We went with the Dad of Ethan Starkweather, and we played Racket Ball, which was such a blast! He was going super easy on the both of us, and still just kicking our butts. He was a good coach and tried helping us to be better at just hitting the ball! Then he let us go one on one against companion, and may I be very humble as I say I played and beat my companion 2 times! Haha he is a good sport and was actually really good at it himself! I think I must have been getting really lucky! We also decided to go and play Frisbee Golf just before the end of the Pday, and went and ran the whole course in just a little over 30 minutes. I was exhausted and sweaty coming back and getting ready for our lessons this evening, but it was worth every moment with my companions for the last time in this transfer... To end the evening we got word from president that we had permission to go to Tyler Texas, 2 hours outside of our mission for some clean up efforts of a Major F4 Tornado, which is a point smaller that the biggest ones possible. It was on the ground for over 40 miles and they are allowing us to go and work on a project for a full day this Saturday wearing the Mormon helping hands vests! Tonight we taught Aaron Cole, and then he helped us teach Shuman, which was pretty good, because some of her questions for baptism were kind of taken care of! He is shy when teaching, even though he knows the doctrine well. We know he will gain confidence as he continually learns. I love this area so much. I don't want to leave.
Tuesday:
"Minnesota eh?, Eh Pacha, Not the Gumdrop Dutton! The Muffin Man!!"- Elder Kochan. He cracks me up! I am so grateful I get to serve with him!! We have been able to connect with each other super well which in turn has made this transfer just the best of all my mission! I do have to admit that I have had many great transfers, but this one has been so Natural for the both of us! Today we were able to go to District Meeting for my very last time as a missionary, and that was a really weird feeling! We sang God be with you till we meet again, and I was pretty much in tears at the end... We then took some pictures that we call our going home pictures, where the one heading out has to lay on a table and pretend to be dead, and everyone acts out a sad family! Haha it is super funny to see, because it portrays the whole district really well! It is weird to think I am the one on the table though! I love my district! They are super funny and have helped us a lot with being able to get and keep so many good people and even helping them get to baptism. It is all about a good council and asking them questions! As we finished up, I was pretty worried for the lesson with Jason, because this was the one we were going to go into depth about his baptism, and I was afraid he was going to post pone or try to change it again, but instead he said, "My family doesn't want me too, but I am ready and know it is right! I will be at church this week and then I will be baptized!" That was a huge thing for us to hear, because ongoing the past few weeks he would never say that he was for sure attending, but that he should be there, and now he is solid and serious! The best art of the evening was just going with Elder Kochan and finding! It is hard to do in a YSA area, but we made the best of it! What a great Tuesday!
Wednesday:
When you feel you can do better, even though you get home exhausted. Today after all was said and done I came Home just a little saddened, because my companion is almost in a quiet and down mood. I feel as though my thinking about home is getting on his nerves. I know it is hard for him, and it is hard for me! It is crazy to think about the fact my mission is at its end! However, I felt I accomplished my purpose through the many things we did today! So we had a wonderful time studying where we then attended the District Meeting of Elder Adams, where we gave a training on Obedience, and I was very grateful how much I learned from giving the training! Elder Kochan taught me so much from his questions he asked and I could tell every elder was thinking, reflecting and trying to think of how to make changes in their lives as missionaries. It was a wonderful training and I am grateful for the Covenants we have made that keep me going to the end! Today we were able to teach Olivia. She see,s to be a little on the edge of being serious. Right now she doesn't seem to ask questions and or answer many things to well, kind of like she is expecting things to come without putting herself all the way in. We are trying to get her to want to active more, but as of now, she doesn't want to be pushed, but wants to read the whole Book of Mormon, and she is only in 2 Nephi 10. We are afraid it may take a while. So the rest of the day was focused on finding and then attending a YSA/Senior BBQ where nicer YSA nor Seniors really attended, so we felt a little out of place and like we were not fulfilling our purpose, but we enjoyed learning and getting to know the youth and having Gabby attend it with us! Tonight really was a great night!
Thursday:
My Final Interview already came and My Last Weekly Planning Session has come and gone... Today has really set me low... I mean it in a good term, but I am really struggling to focus now. And I blame it all on President Whitney! Haha Today I was able to start my day off with a little bit of planning and studying, after which I went and had my Final Interview with President Whitney. At this point I now can say that I officially feel like I will actually be going home! I still feel like it is a dream, but it feels a little bit more real. He have me some really good advice for how I can keep the spirit in my life as I return home. He also talked to me about Marriage. He explained his story and how much his marriage has effected him and asked me about potentials to go back too. I was kind of shocked and so we talked and he just told me there is no need to wait and that I need to just start my life. I know God will provide as I just do what is right! The rest of my interview went so well and then Elder Kochan and I went and had a wonderful 4 hour planning session for the last time of my mission! It was crazy thinking that will never happen again with a name tag on, but I was able to keep somewhat of a focus as we planned! The rest of the day went really well and we were able to teach Wendy Lee, a recent convert, and then we had the chance to visit with Bishop and go contacting, where I go shut down by a full group of people! I was pretty bummed none of them would even take a card of Jesus Christ. But we enjoyed our evening. Oh and another great feeling was getting dropped by Oliva Williams tonight... she decided the Mormon was not right or her. She, however, is going to let us stop by and talk about what happened. We hope all will go well!
Friday:
Simply today I will say a few things! We had a packed day for lessons, and it was like my last full day to teach lessons, and I loved it! We taught Jason, and he is ready for his baptism this next week! We cant wait for him to be baptized, but he is a little sad I will not be there... It made him happy knowing I would be his friend on Facebook! So today we had a chance to go and find on TCC, but school is over and TCC was empty... We decided still to try and we met a girl named Lauren on her way out the the school. I didnt thing she seemed very interested, and she said she would let us know when she can meet. We thought, well everyone tells us that... that will never happen and just went on with our day for teaching. Our final lesson for the day was with Allen Low! It was a great lesson and super powerful about the blessing of the Atonement for us. I am grateful for the Atonement in my Life. How I can have Jesus Christ clean me as I try my hardest to follow him!
Saturday:
A true miracle has occurred today! Throughout my whole mission I have truly desired to be able to put on a yellow Mormon Helping Hands Vest and go out and be able to give service to thought who had been apart of a traumatic experience with a Natural Disaster. Well today we the day to make that Dream become a reality! We woke up at 4:45 AM and showered and got ready for the day and then quickly drove and met up with our ward at the Stake Center. We were able to get a good chance to know our members as we were waiting and as we got ready to leave. We had Sister Quinn, a wife from the YSA High-counselor, make us our lunches from the day and we headed off where I went with Elder Kochan and Thomas Daniel, our Elders Quorum President. We had a great ride and conversation while driving for 2 hours to the middle of nowhere, and way out of our mission. It is a really small town and farming community called Canton. It was super fun to be out of the Metroplex, because it has been about 2 years since I have really been away from lots of homes! So as we were driving Thomas was telling us that when we see the damage we would be shocked, because the storm was so major it would blow our mind. It was funny, because as we were diving the GPS told us we would have to pull over and walk, and I was laughing, because there was not a tree down or any Debris anywhere. Until all of the sudden we rounded on a turn, and there was a huge Tornado path that was roughly a Football Field wide!! It was absolutely crazy! I have never seen anything like it! There were downed trees and trailer wheels with no mobile homes left, along with trucks that once were in good condition, that were worthless at that point, Fence lines gone and so forth. As we got there we decided to work on some downed trees on the back fence line, and we worked for about an hour waiting for the owner to come out. Then as the owner showed up we were able to know what was needed exactly. We got the fence line back in use and Elder Kochan and I were able to work with Charles, the friend of the owner, as we built a chicken coop for their chickens. It was fun being with him and seeing him happy to have us there and also joking with us in his super thick east Texan accent. The time there went by fast and the change we saw while working was amazing. We made a huge difference in that place! As we were leaving we decided to take a picture with the owner we had come to love. She was in tears that we would come to help her. Also while driving back Thomas took us to go and see a gas station called Buckees. It is like a Walmart mixed with gas pumps and so forth. Except ginormous! There we found some amazing Texas Souvenirs. The rest of the day we went and taught a guy named Siggy at his work and think he might actually have more potencial that we thought! Also Lauren that we met yesterday text us first to set up an appointment.... what! That was the first and possibly last time that will ever happen for me! What a tiring and good day! I am ready to pass out!
Sunday:
My last Sunday in the field..... Today I woke up in shock as I realized it would be my last Sunday wearing a full time missionary name tag. It is exciting and saddening at the same time. Not because I am not ready to see my family, but because I am also going to miss my Texas family so much! Today we had ward conference and Bishop Kokenes called me out and said he wanted me to go up and bare my final testimony... So I went up in front of The whole Stake Presidency and the whole ward that was a full room, and I bore my testimony of how my mission has changed me. I used the scripture on my mission plaque and am grateful that I the scripture I chose, because it describes my mission very very well! "As of my strength I am weak, but I am strong through Christ who strengthens me!" My whole mission including that past week I have been so very busy and exhausted. As I did what was right and prayed for extra strength I was blessed with energy and strength to fulfill my calling! I was grateful for the things they said to me and for thanking me, and Sister Kokenes, the Bishops wife, gave me a gift from them that was a sweet thank you card and a very nice watch to always remember them by! It was a sweet memory and I am going to miss them so dearly! They have because apart of me, or me apart of them, and I hope to always stay in their loop!! What a crazy week as we got home tonight and had to go searching for 2 missionaries that were not answering their phone for numbers! Come to find out they just forgot and had their phone on silent!
Con Amor,
Elder Spendlove
De la Misión de Texas Fort Worth